I knew that this would be
one of the most stupid decisions that I have
taken in my life but I had to do this for myself.I had to invite Leto for a night out. If it is a
mistake, it would be my mistake, regardless of what all that my friends
tell me. I was tired of all the awkward moments when Leto and I met
in corridors, tired of the uncertain text messages that he and I
exchanged. I always try to give people a chance, “benefit of the
doubt” as they say, but with Leto things were different, giving him a
chance made the chills run down my back, because nothing proves that he
might be genuine in all that he does, not even his apologies and friendly
greetings, everything that has happened between us spells “STAY AWAY”
but I cannot.
I spent most of today in the library, not reading or studying but
contemplating about tonight. Thinking how things will turn out,
will I be able to get a final and straight answer from Leto? Would he
avoid looking at me in the eye? Would he lie and turn everything that
has happened into paranoia thoughts from my head and make me feel
dim-witted and immature about so many things that I am not to blame
for.
Tonight I am going to take my power back, God! I pray that I will be
able to sift out every lie until the truth stands out naked. I have to set the
record straight, holding nothing back! Every cliché you can think of,
I am going to be it. However, at the back of my mind memories flash by
and I remember how weak I can be around Leto, how he can make my
blood rush to my brain so fast that I cannot tell a difference between
a lie and the truth.Oh my…I am smiling and feeling all fuzzy again. STOP! I have to compose myself and think of a tactful way of handling Leto, or else I will be stuck in this foolishness and end up ruined.
To be continued…taken in my life but I had to do this for myself.I had to invite Leto for a night out. If it is a
mistake, it would be my mistake, regardless of what all that my friends
tell me. I was tired of all the awkward moments when Leto and I met
in corridors, tired of the uncertain text messages that he and I
exchanged. I always try to give people a chance, “benefit of the
doubt” as they say, but with Leto things were different, giving him a
chance made the chills run down my back, because nothing proves that he
might be genuine in all that he does, not even his apologies and friendly
greetings, everything that has happened between us spells “STAY AWAY”
but I cannot.
I spent most of today in the library, not reading or studying but
contemplating about tonight. Thinking how things will turn out,
will I be able to get a final and straight answer from Leto? Would he
avoid looking at me in the eye? Would he lie and turn everything that
has happened into paranoia thoughts from my head and make me feel
dim-witted and immature about so many things that I am not to blame
for.
Tonight I am going to take my power back, God! I pray that I will be
able to sift out every lie until the truth stands out naked. I have to set the
record straight, holding nothing back! Every cliché you can think of,
I am going to be it. However, at the back of my mind memories flash by
and I remember how weak I can be around Leto, how he can make my
blood rush to my brain so fast that I cannot tell a difference between
a lie and the truth.Oh my…I am smiling and feeling all fuzzy again. STOP! I have to compose myself and think of a tactful way of handling Leto, or else I will be stuck in this foolishness and end up ruined.
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